The light at the end of the school
tunnel is getting closer and closer. I can almost see the destination at the
end but not quite yet. It is all in timing…The time isn’t here yet for me to
know my future, not just yet. Ever wonder what you would do if you were given
three wishes? I think of it quite often; first I would do the given, wish for
more wishes. If that wasn’t possible, I would wish I could have just a small
glimpse into the future. Just one small glimpse would really satisfy my heart
right? I mean, who wouldn’t want to know where they will be in one, five, or ten
years?
I busted my way into this world
with a fire lit under my feet. At times that fire dims more than others, but in
all-in-all, I live my life in a busy ball of craziness. But let’s get real; I
really wouldn’t have it any other way. I went to college with one goal in mind;
finish in four years, become a television news reporter and serve the name of
Jesus Christ. I have fought long and
hard to keep myself on track with this plan. Although, in the craziness of
attempting to get everything I needed to get accomplished in four years, I
worked multiple jobs, managed to lose 100 lbs and met many of new life-long friends.
But the subject still lingers, timing.
Sometimes my timing is simply not
the Lord’s. I desire for things to happen in my life when I want them to happen. I think precious Jesus has a sense of
humor; so many times in life, I have worked hard to make my plans succeed and I
am sure He is up there just giggling at my attempts. I kind of look at life
like the relationship between a train and its conductor. The train is sure and
safe if it stays on course; it will travel up and down roads all day long just
fine and dandy as long as the conductor keeps its straight and narrow. But here
is the problem, when a train gets to a fork in the road, which way will it go?
The conductor ultimately has the choice of which way the train goes, making the
precious train simply along for the ride. I think about that train, one would normally
think it was the one in the “relationship” that was so important. I mean think
about it, the train is the one doing the work, carrying the cargo, burning that
coal. But look at the conductor; at the end of the day, the train doesn’t run
without his guiding hand.
We are given 24
hours in a day, 24! That seems like a lot but we all know it is never enough. I
work so hard to take my 24 hours and plan, schedule and arrange it in the most
useful way I know how. However, at the end of the day, no matter how many times
I look at my watch, I only have 24 hours to get everything done. Sweet Jesus
desires us to devote our 24 hours to him. Just as I have to spend my days
relying on my planer to tell me when I am suppose to go to and from the next
event, Jesus is our own personal planner. He loves when we come to him to schedule
our lives, plan out our course and ultimately trust in HIS timing.
I am fully aware that I will not
ever get my three wishes. I know and accept that the fun part of life does
never know exactly where God (our Conductor) will lead us. I do my best to
start my day by asking the sweet Lord to take the time given to me and use it
to honor His kingdom. But can’t you see… I don’t need wishes. I serve a loving
a gracious Father who is leading my steps and even in the moments when I am
unsure why something did or didn’t happen, when I can’t exactly tell where I
will be in the next six months or why I can’t see into the future, I know that I
am simply a train on this course of life. I look forward to that day when my
Conductor stands in the clouds and yells “All Aboard”, but until that day, I am
simply a train on this track of life.
