Let go and let God!

     Ah, I love goreous and sunny summer Saturdays (like all those 's' words? lol). I am back in the good ole town of Florence, and even though my time visiting my parents was nice, it feels great to be back in a routine of things.
   So, I am feeling the need to step into deep waters tonight, so get your boots on okay? Cause here we go...
Relationships are definied as the way in which two or more concepts, objects, or people are connected, or the state of being connected. Since I now know that I am the personality type "ESFJ", I honestly feel that I understand who I am on a deeper level. The top three traits of this type is caregiver, person in charger, and deep feeler. I am FOR SURE all of those. But I want to really focus on the last one, a deep feeler. I have always been this way. I hold friendships, all of them, very near and dear to my heart. I don't look to make just here and there friends (even though I have them); I look to make life lasting relationships with people I come in contact with. This trait can be very good, but a lot of times can bite ya in the rear. I can honestly say I have never been in a full fledged dating relationship. Yes, I have been on a few dates, even in some half relationships, but none of those were very healthy. I am thankful for the things I have went through, even if they ended void, because without I would have not learned valuable lessons about myself, others or most imporantly what and who God has planned for me.
     I have been reading this amazing book entitled, When God Writes Your Love Story. Even if you are currently dating someone, this book is a MUST READ; it is honestly changing my life one word at a time. But this book talks about giving your "pen" to Christ, meaning to stop trying to hold onto control of everything (even relationships) and allow God to illustrate the most beautiful story ever imagined. I am learning that God really truley and honestly has an amazing plan orchestrated for me, but I have to quit putting my own feelings and desires in to the mix and give Him my "pen".  I am working on this, for it is a daily task I must conquer. With recent relationships I have went through, I tried to handle things on my own, make things happen that shouldn't have, pushed my ways on God instead of His on me, and in result got hurt, really hurt. But see, it was a learning lesson. I have since learned I was dumb, reaaaall dumb.
    I desire to know, follow, seek and live the will God has for me and trust that who He brings into my life, for friends or dating relationships, will be whom He he has orchestrated, but I have to surrender my ALL to Him. As I said, this is a daily battle for me; I am working on it. But my control freak like nature gets in the way many times and I result in getting hurt. If only I would have listened to Him first I might not have gone through it. But at the end of the day, I know God still loves me, still wants me, and still has my best interest at heart. I just encourage you to give your "pen to Christ".. Simple let go and let God!!

Total Rest and Relaxation

       Hola mi amigos!

  It has been a few days since I posted last, so I thought I would catch up on a few things!
The end of Spring 2011 semester was very bittersweet. This was the first time, since I lived in the dorms,
to not have to move out once finals were completed. It was such a strange feeling helping a few of my friends
move out knowing I will be in Florence all Summer. I am excited about my summer plans, really! The Lord really blessed me with an excellent second job and I will also be attending school, via online nonetheless. So, since my summer is going to be CRAZY hectic with jobs, school, VBS, vacation, dinner nights, Bible studies, church, mission work, and working out, I thought I would spend a few days in my homeland before all this craziness begins!
    Home is defined as a person's country, city, etc., esp viewed as a birthplace, a residence during one's early years, or a place dear to one. My home, or my growing up place, is in a small town in north Alabama. I am proud of my little town, not much there; however, it is where my fondest memories have taken place. I consider myself very close to my family, and even though I love living on my own, spending a few days with them has been much needed! But since being "home", I have rummaged through my old memory box, a box full of pictures, letters, and items from early childhood until now. It is so cool to relieve some wonderful times in my life; times when I didn't care what the world was wanting me to be, who I wanted to become, or what others expected of me. But a time when I was a kid, simply being a kid not caring about nothing else but having fun!
   Some like to call me their "mom away from home". Which basically, I am, haha! I took my personality test thingy the other day and it said I am an ESFJ; meaning I am an extravagant, feeling! I am serious y'all, this test hit the nail on the head. Most people with this personality type are control freaks, mom figures, care takers, sensitive at heart, and good advice givers. I feel like I fit these roles, honestly. But I feel responsible for so many people; friends, family, peers, I feel as if its my responsibility to "take them under my wing". Ugh I don't know where I am going with that thought but mainly, if you need me, EVER, I am here. To bake cookies, dinner, hug you when you cry, walk with you when you need to vent, scream and be mad when you are furious, or tell you like it is only to better yourself!
    I've rambled enough, I am not even sure if any of this blog makes a lick of sense, but oh well! I am anxiously returning to my "new home" mid-week, aka Florence, and I am ready to start my crazy/busy/fast pact/no free time summer! To tell you a secret, I dislike summer breaks, always have. I love school (yes I am a nerd and embrace it) and I literally get giddy thinking about Fall semester getting here. Fall means new friends, new classes, Saturday football games, fun leaf piles, and cooler air! AHH!! See I am already excited!!!
     --Blessings--
            G

Leading By Example..

     "If your actions inspire others to dream more, learn more, do more and becoe more, you are a leader."
-John Quincy Adams

    Yesterday was a very significant holiday, Mother's Day! I had full intentions of blogging yesterday but ran out of time, so here I am! In my opinion, I have the best mother around. Not only is she my mom, but my best friend. We have our moments where we fuss and disagree, but at the end of the day, my mom is always there for me. I am so thankful and blessed that God blessed me with not only an amazing God fearing mom, dad as well. Mother's Day is not only a day to celebrate our mothers, but a day where we can be thankful for the family God has blessed us with.
   Since I was a little girl, I have wanted to be a mom. My sister and I were just joking yesterday how when we played "house" growing up, I was always the mom/teacher/boss and always made her be the lesser character. It has always just been a strong pull of mine to someday be mom. When I first was deciding what major to go after in college, I was convinced teaching was for me. My thoughts were I become a teacher, then one day a mother, and then I can be home with my family. However, God had a different plan. I am now in the process of becoming a TV News Anchor, my ultimate passion. I know that in this field I will be working odd hours and my time wont be as flexiable, but I trust that God knows and hold my future in His hands, and whatever happens..happens.
   I hope you know a relationship that I have with my mom. I understand not everyone has a such mom in their life, but maybe you can find it in a grandmother, aunt, cousin, or friend. One day I hope to be a mom, and I hope to be a mom like my mom has been to me. Yes, there is a care and respect for her, but at the end of the day, I know I can tell her anything.
  So mom, thanks so much for all you do and continue to do. I know I do not say it quite enough, but I am thankful to call you mine! (:

Blessing..
--G--

Glory Day, The End is Here!

     Today marks the first day of finals for the Spring 2011 semester! I just simply cannot believe that my second year is college is already coming to an end, wow! Looking back on this full year, God has blessed so much. I have had some amazing people come into my life that I am SO thankful ful! I love the Fall semester; for it is when new friends move in, Saturday night football games are in full swing, and the weather is perfect every day. But I also love the Spring, for it means Summer is just around the corner!
    So, yesterday, into today, was the National Day of Prayer. Some of us from The Well celebrated by having a prayer vigil around the clock at the amphitheater on campus. I went with my friend, Amanda Price, early this morning, from 6-7am. I am still completely shocked by the way God showed up this morning. Yes, it was cold, and I was crazy tired, but just spending time in the early morning when no one is on campus, simply pouring our hearts out for the needs of fellow students was amazing.
Psalm 46: 10 says, "Be still and know that I am God." That is simply what I did this morning, simply sit and marvel at His glory. I serve an amazing God, who knows all my crazy faults, worries, and failures, but He takes them all anyways and uses them for His glory!
    God has taught me so much about myself in just this semester alone. He has drawn me so close to Him, and I literally cannot go throughout the day without his love and mercy. I have also learned a lot about myself in terms of relationships with people as well. God has showed me that I cannot expect my relationships with people to work out unless I fully immerse Him into them. God has to be the center in ALL relationships, friends, dating, family, whatever. I realized I was failing at this, putting others and my own personal feelings before Him. This verse has become my new LIFE verse for this semester, "And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who^[a] have been called according to his purpose." Romans 8:28
    I hope that you just take a moment today to thank the Creator of our Universe for giving you another day to praise Him, another day to love Him, and another day to tell others about Him! 
Have a wonderful Friday; blessings!
--G-- 

I Was Inspired, so Here I Am...

   Hi! Wow, blogging world; kind of exciting! So, with a lot of friends starting one of these, I thought I would jump on the 'bandwagon' and start one myself. In this first blog, I want to really kind of just let you all into the deepest parts of my heart/mind..get to know the real 'me'!

    First off, I am a God loving, Savior serving, prasing Him freak! I love Christ, a man that gave it all for me and expected nothing in return. I spend my days honestly seeking His face, wanting to see others through His eyes, and spending more time with Him! I am learning that I want God to direct my path, every single step. And if things are not His will, they wont work.

   I have amazing friends. I am so blessed with the people God has brought into my life. My friends at college are my 'family away from home', and without them, I would surly die! I am a strong 'feeler' (or so I have heard). I hold people very close to me very fast and it hurts SO bad when things fall apart with friends.   I have had some friends come and go into my life this semester. I have had friends come and go into my life this semester (as with all), but I still pray for my friends daily, all of them..even if things may not be so good at this moment! (:

   I am weird yall, like really. I find the oddest things cool; like news, weather, sewing, and being crafty. Most people who know me say I am a "45 Year old Country wife"..which is pretty much true. I love the news, as I mentioned, and I am pursuing my dream of becoming a TV news reporter. I am simply a small town girl with big city dreams! I love politics and vow to live in Washington D.C. for a short period of time.

   So yea, thanks so much for reading. I hope by this you have seen a little more into my life. I will be back soon, with more crazy thoughts that pop into my head!
--G--