Let go and let God!

     Ah, I love goreous and sunny summer Saturdays (like all those 's' words? lol). I am back in the good ole town of Florence, and even though my time visiting my parents was nice, it feels great to be back in a routine of things.
   So, I am feeling the need to step into deep waters tonight, so get your boots on okay? Cause here we go...
Relationships are definied as the way in which two or more concepts, objects, or people are connected, or the state of being connected. Since I now know that I am the personality type "ESFJ", I honestly feel that I understand who I am on a deeper level. The top three traits of this type is caregiver, person in charger, and deep feeler. I am FOR SURE all of those. But I want to really focus on the last one, a deep feeler. I have always been this way. I hold friendships, all of them, very near and dear to my heart. I don't look to make just here and there friends (even though I have them); I look to make life lasting relationships with people I come in contact with. This trait can be very good, but a lot of times can bite ya in the rear. I can honestly say I have never been in a full fledged dating relationship. Yes, I have been on a few dates, even in some half relationships, but none of those were very healthy. I am thankful for the things I have went through, even if they ended void, because without I would have not learned valuable lessons about myself, others or most imporantly what and who God has planned for me.
     I have been reading this amazing book entitled, When God Writes Your Love Story. Even if you are currently dating someone, this book is a MUST READ; it is honestly changing my life one word at a time. But this book talks about giving your "pen" to Christ, meaning to stop trying to hold onto control of everything (even relationships) and allow God to illustrate the most beautiful story ever imagined. I am learning that God really truley and honestly has an amazing plan orchestrated for me, but I have to quit putting my own feelings and desires in to the mix and give Him my "pen".  I am working on this, for it is a daily task I must conquer. With recent relationships I have went through, I tried to handle things on my own, make things happen that shouldn't have, pushed my ways on God instead of His on me, and in result got hurt, really hurt. But see, it was a learning lesson. I have since learned I was dumb, reaaaall dumb.
    I desire to know, follow, seek and live the will God has for me and trust that who He brings into my life, for friends or dating relationships, will be whom He he has orchestrated, but I have to surrender my ALL to Him. As I said, this is a daily battle for me; I am working on it. But my control freak like nature gets in the way many times and I result in getting hurt. If only I would have listened to Him first I might not have gone through it. But at the end of the day, I know God still loves me, still wants me, and still has my best interest at heart. I just encourage you to give your "pen to Christ".. Simple let go and let God!!